Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did 4/5 of my personal PC work.I then headed over to my Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful as usual.After the meeting was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby post office and I mailed out an important bill.After that,I went to the local Sears and paid another bill.After that,I did as little bit of shopping at a local supermarket.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.I also relaxed and watched a movie.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Christ Jesus whenever this struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not nor ever alone in this fight and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up in bed for a while and I proceeded to get up and that made the erection slowly die down.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft and when they were,I went back to sleep.Throughout this day,I kept busy with things,such as my group and doing all of my shopping as the day went along.It took my mind off of my struggles with SSA and that was pretty good.My mind was preoccupied with just getting through the day and not thinking much of anything else as I went on.I just kept my mind on what I had to do and that made the day goes by pretty quickly.Though today was pretty busy and I wasn't thinking much of anything else,tomorrow will be another day and that means that it might be different.I am also again asking for prayers by those who continue to follow my blog and read the posts.I am also again asking that those who do to please leave an encouraging comment or two.My blog gets quite a few visitors and curiosity seekers,but again,comments are rare.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me and please don't be shy when visiting.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight against SSA and make me even more determined to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unnatural sexual desires that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ