Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.
After all of that was done,I headed to the same local kitchen for lunch and after that,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things and after that,I headed to a nearby supermarket across the street to pick up one more thing.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to withdraw some munch needed money.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills at the Where's George site and after that was done,I headed back out again to pay a bill at another local supermarket.After picking up one more thing that was needed,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a movie.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still battling the symptoms of BPD and still enduring that continuous emotional roller coaster ride.It is never an easy thing to deal with nor struggle with.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this struggle and that makes me feel a tad better,though the ups and downs are still pretty difficult to handle and deal with.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,though I escaped temptation to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep,I gave into a later temptation by manipulating my genitals and this time,I gave into the temptation to watch porn online.After I stopped myself,I really felt miserable for falling and sinning against God and I asked him in his son Jesus Christ's name to forgive me for sinning against him and I did feel better as a result of that as i truly believed that I was forgiven and that the slate was again wiped clean.Throughout the rest of the day,I kept busy and all that I did today took my mind off of anything sexual,including unwholesome sexual images of men.These images do like to cloud my mind and I never know when they might strike.I have to continually keep in mind that Satan and his minions are going to use everything in their evil power to get me to sin against God by indulging in sexual activity with other men,which is what I am trying to avoid as I know that this type of thing is condemned by God in his sacred word,the Holy Bible.I kept busy all day and nothing ever crept up into my mind as I stayed busy.Though this did happen and it was good,I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog to please continue offering prayers for me as I am going through this and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and make me even more determined to continue in my healing journey from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a possible Men's Network group tomorrow and church on Sunday,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ