Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed up to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had an orientation with an organization to set me up with a local job placement program so I can start finding work real soon.I am getting tired of just sitting down on my duff and doing little if nothing.I headed over there with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The orientation went great.After it was over,they informed that I should hear from them with 4-6 weeks or sooner.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have some lunch and after lunch,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into some casual clothes and finished the rest of my personal PC work.When that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle with the symptoms and continuous emotional roller coaster ride of BPD.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or by the minute/moment within the same day.I never know how my moods and/or emotional patterns will be like.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPS struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this struggle and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was hit with a triple whammy during three separate intervals in wee early morning hours.I was awakened by throbbing erections during those three separate intervals and they were very overwhelming.I tossed and I turned on each occasion,but the erections continued to throb.I had to sit up for a while on all three occasions and I lost some sleep as a result.Fortunately,they all softened while I was sitting up on each occasion and I went back to sleep after them all.Though I escaped this triple whammy,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies,lusting and to manipulate my genitals while doing so.I kept asking God in prayer in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resit all of these terrible temptations.I want to do the right thing,but my sinful nature wants me to do the opposite.I kept up in prayer all day and I didn't cease.After each prayer,I felt better and much stronger as I knew that God and Christ both heard me and they helped me.Though I am still doing,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to please continue praying for me and also,don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue in my healing journey form the unnatural sexual desires connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ