Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up immediately in a suit and I proceeded to head for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.I got a lot out of them.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I had a light lunch and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning every week always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be like from day to day,or at times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.It having BPD isn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It makes me feel a little bit better knowing that they are there leading the way and showing that I am never alone in this particular struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and headed for the bathroom and as I headed there,the erection softened and when I was finished,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted a little bit to act out on these unnatural desires that I have by lusting,fantasizing and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping alongside the lusting and fantasizing.Yes,it was to images of men clouding up my mind,but I didn't give into these temptations.I prayed hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I threw the temptations on God and asked him for strength to fight and resist these temptations in the name of his son Christ Jesus and I felt better after praying.I went through the day without much on my mind,but I also have to keep in mind that though I did escape today,tomorrow is another day.I can never thing of never giving into temptation again.I simply think in terms of one day at a time when it comes to fighting temptations of all sorts that Satan and his minions will try to throw at me.I have to keep up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and keep asking for strength to fight and resist all temptations that come at me.I am also again asking for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog posts and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA and to continue in my healing journey out of it.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made much plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ