Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I proceeded with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much on my agenda for today.I only went out to pay a bill that needed to be paid and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
Today,the weather was COLD! and snowy.We are supposed to be in the season of Spring,but it doesn't look nor feel like it.I am hoping that the weather starts to improve real soon.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling on a daily basis with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I am always in a constant up and down thing when it comes to my emotions and moods.They vary by the day,or at times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I really share what is going on with this.They both help in sustaining me and make me feel a tad better.I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning when I manipulated my genitals and yes,there was fantasies and lusting involved in it as well.I actually ejaculated to that and I really felt miserable after doing that.After cleaning my hands,I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him by doing this and after I was finished,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven.Throughout the day,I was tempted repeatedly and I really had to make the difficult move to ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me as they were coming at me from all sides.I kept up in prayer as I didn't want to sin again like I did earlier this morning.I kept asking God for strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me as again,I didn't want to sin again.I felt better after doing that and I just moved on with my day.I am again asking for prayers by everyone of you who follow my blog and read the posts to please continue praying for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and also make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA,including healing from the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday morning,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ