Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to church for the morning's study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with the rest of the members,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.After a light lunch,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a movie in and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful in itself as both God and his son Christ Jesus are leading the way.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate in the wee early morning hours came at me when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and I got up out of bed to goo to there and while I did that,the erection started to soften and after I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting after and fantasizing with other men.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping to these sexual images of men.I had to keep up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I asked God in the name of his son Christ Jesus to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these temptations that were coming at me from all sides.I prayed hard for that strength and when I was finished,I felt stronger and much better as the temptations were reduced to nil.While I have been doing that,I am again asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and also,they both make me even more determined to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ