Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed out right away to take care of some personal business that I had to take care of.After that,I headed to a local kitchen for some lunch.After that,I headed for home.
On my way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home as I saw the sky and decided to head straight home as the sky looked as if a terrible rainstorm was coming.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone on this struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and as I started doing so,the erection started to soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men and to also manipulate my genitals while doing so.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ throughout the day and I asked for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations as they kept coming at me and after I finished praying,I felt stronger and totally believed that God and Christ both heard me.SSA is never an easy thing to struggle with and it gets even more difficult day after day.I am again asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts.I am also asking that you please share an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are area.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and also,they both make me even more determined to continue in my healing journey from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ