Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had one really big thing on my agenda today.I had an appointment with a urology associates office in regard to the frequent bathroom going throughout the day and also,the pain in my groin area.After the appointment,which went well,we arranged another session where I have my groin area checked out via x-ray.After leaving the office,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.This shows me that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation by masturbation early this morning,but this time,it was more on an emotional level than with lusting and fantasies,though that was a small contributor.I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive my sins and I did feel better as a result as I truly believed that I was forgiven.I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me strength to fight and resist the temptations that came at me from all sides.I felt better and much stronger after doing that and it did make me feel better.I am again asking for prayers by all of you who continue to follow my blog and read the posts.I am also again ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and also,motivates me to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ