Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were as wonderful as usual.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow Christians,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up a couple of prescriptions.After paying the co-pay on these,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes,I also did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church every Sunday morning always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.It can get pretty tiresome and also,pretty monotonous.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply put this struggle in the hands of both God and his son Jesus Christ,take it to them in prayer and they both help in sustaining me.It is simply a mater of letting God and his son Christ Jesus take the lead and getting me through the difficulties of this double whammy of a psychiatric disability that I have.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for a while and proceeded to get out of bed and that is when the erection started to soften.I also walked to the bathroom and when I was finished in the bathroom,the erection had fully softened and I simply went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasizing with other men and also,to manipulate my genitals while lusting and fantasizing to those sexual images of men.I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and kept asking God in his son Christ Jesus' name to give me strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations and I felt much stronger afterwards and I truly believed and knew that God and Christ both heard me.I felt better afterwards and that was great.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts to continue in prayer for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I am also asking that none of you be shy and please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.I continually ask these things because your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ