Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to the bank to deposit a check that was sent to me and after that,I decided to take a drive to find a particular place that I needed to look for as I was heading there on Friday.It is with a job placement office and I needed to find out where the place was so I would know where to go and how to get there.After finding the office,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I also have to endure the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult or unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular struggle and this does make me feel only a tad better.Thanks to both both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I tossed to my left and the erection softened pretty quickly.I went back to sleep afterwards.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men and today,for the first time in quite a while,I was tempted to go out and seek other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.I ignored that temptation by simply driving home after finding the office that I have an appointment with on Friday.Day after day,the SSA struggle gets even more difficult and the unnatural desires to indulge in sinful sexual activity with other men also get stronger,because the temptation to do that gets stronger by the day.I was also trying to work on staying strong after falling yesterday morning.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read the posts that I make to please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave comments.Please leave me an encouraging comment as I would really appreciate that.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and gives me more motivation to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and lunch at the local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ