Happy Memorial Day,everyone.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I put a pair of sweat pants on and decided to simply take it easy as I didn't have anything else to do today.I never have nothing to do when holidays,such as Memorial Day, come around.
I simply watched TV for most of the day.There was a special MASH marathon on TVLand and I sat and watched it and it all ended with the series finale "Goodbye,Farewell and Amen."It was really a blast watching this marathon.MASH happens to be one of my favorite classic TV shows.Since I had nothing to do or no place to go today,I simply decided to stay home and make the best of it.It was wonderful.
In between watching the non-stop episodes,I managed to have a nice lunch and relaxed for the whole day.
After eating a light dinner,I continued watching the marathon and when I was all over,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day as I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day,or sometimes,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia at the same time.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication,which was just increased,as directed.I am also still continue to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me evenly level.It does make me feel a tad better that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is actually very good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for a while and I proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made the erection soften.I proceeded to walk to the bathroom as I had to use it and when I was finished with what I had to do,I went right back to bed and back to sleep.Throughout the rest of the day,I wasn't tempted too do anything in regards to SSA.No images of men clouded my mind nor did any lustful and sexual thoughts of men creep up into my mind.I simply kept busy watching TV and simply keeping up with life and just enjoying the day.Though nothing happened today,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.I am again asking that all of you who follow and read the posts on my blog keep up in prayer for me as I am going through this.Please continue to pray for me as I am going through a pretty difficult emotional period even though I wasn't tempted today to do anything sexually sinful in the forms of lusting and fantasies with other members of my own gender.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks again in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ