Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4.5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed up in a suit quickly to head for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the morning's worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful and I did get a lot out of everything from them.After the whole thing was over,we had a wonderful pancake breakfast in the church's fellowship hall and I had two helpings.After the whole thing was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and finished my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If that wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I also have to put up with having hallucinations as well as the emotional roller coaster ride.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my heavenly father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to try to get the better of me and they both help in keeping me sustained,clam and serene.It also shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I tossed and turned,but the erection throbbed only a little.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made the erection start to soften.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft and when they were,I went back to sleep.For today,I really wasn't plagued by temptations to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.I kept busy watching a movie or two throughout the day and just kept my mind focused on things that were positive.Though I did escape this day,there is always the days after today as each day is different.I am again asking that all of you keep up in prayer for me and also,to please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and also to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,which will be the Memorial Day holiday,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ