Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and before I showered,I made a couple of phone calls to messages that were left on my voice-mail.After that,I went into the shower to clean myself.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much to do today.I went to a local gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed into another area of the county that I lived in to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I leave nothing out.They both help in sustaining me whenever I do that.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,when I was still in bed,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals with lustful and sexual thoughts of men creeping up into my mind.Fortunately for me,I managed to stop myself from going further and I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him with this latest fall.I kept up in prayer all day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I didn't want to fall again.I prayed all throughout the day to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I asked God for the strength to fight and resist all of the temptations that were coming at me from all sides and I felt much stronger as I truly and totally believed and had faith that God and Christ both heard me.I am also again asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts to keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through an emotionally rough time.I also ask that all of you to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rare.Don't be shy and leave something encouraging for me.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in hoping to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment to get my groin area checked out to see what could be causing my frequent bathroom going throughout the day and the pain that I also get in that area.As for the rest of the day,I haven't made any other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ