Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful as usual.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things and after paying for them,I headed for a nearby Payless Shoe Source to check out what they had for sale and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit,changed into my casual clothes and fixed myself a quick lunch.After lunch,I did my personal PC work and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a whole bunch of empty bottles that I needed to turn into the store.I headed over to a local supermarket to turn them in and it took me quite a while to get them all returned and get the money after collecting the receipts.After that was done,I headed for the nearby Target to check out their inventory of sneakers,for which I didn't find much.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the money that I received from the bottle returns at the Where's George site.After that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church every Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.It can be pretty monotonous and tiresome at times.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel only a little bit better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed and the erection started to soften as I was doing that.I walked for a bit and as I walked,the erection continues to soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted minimally throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect to the lusting and fantasies.I had to continually ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to fight and resist all of these urges and I did feel better after doing that.I felt much stronger and I also felt that God and Christ both heard me.I simply took it to God and Christ throughout the day and I tried not to fall even once.Though I have been doing that,I am again asking for prayers by all of you who follow my blog and read the posts on here to please keep praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and also motivate me to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have,which are connected to this terrible SSA condition.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ