Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
I had to pay a visit to the job placement counselor today to talk with him about a few things.After the 10 minute meeting,which went well,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and I finished eating,I headed straight home.
When I got home,as a result of the day being rainy,I stayed home and finished my personal PC work.I also did some work around the house that I needed to do.After finishing that,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,enduring and putting up with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to endure and put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have,which makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden as Psalm 55:22 says to do and I ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure and get me through the negatives and the difficulties and they both help in not only sustaining me,but also work with me to keep me on a normal level plain.It makes me feel a tad better knowing that they are there.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning when yet another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep,though it didn't last long.I turned to my left side and I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me fight and resist this temptation and as I prayed,the erection softened and I went back to sleep.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals alongside this.I asked my Heavenly Father for strength to fight and resist all of these temptations because they were really overwhelming.After praying,I felt much stronger and more able to carry on throughout the day.I kept up in prayer and I felt better doing so.Though I have been doing this,I am still asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult emotional time.I also ask that you leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as well.I need some encouraging words,alongside the prayers,to help keep me going in this fight and struggle as they both make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal form the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ