Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I had a light lunch and did my personal PC work.
I also decided to pay a visit to a friend who I hadn't seen in a while to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to relax and do a little reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still enduring the whole struggle with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD and the nasty symptoms that this type of disorder has.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia alongside the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through this difficult struggle with this psychiatric disability that I have and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better as both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ are leading the way.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to indulge in masturbation during the wee early morning hours and yes,sexual images of men were also clouding my mind.I sat up and proceeded to walk to the bathroom as I had to go and that made the erection soften and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and also,right back to sleep.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful sexual fantasizing and lusting after other men and yes,the temptation to manipulate my genitals to get them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping was not far behind.I prayed to my Heavenly Father all through the day whenever these temptations came around.I asked for strength to help me fight and resist all of these temptations and I asked him for this in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I felt better after doing so and also,much stronger.While I am doing that,I am again asking for prayers by all of you who follow my blog and read the posts here.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please don't forget to leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but when they visit,they rarely leave comments.Plus,when comments aren't left,I feel that I am struggling alone and that nobody cares about helping someone like me.Please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I continually ask this because both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in overcoming this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment that I have with my job placement counselor,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ