Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went out to drop off some free newspapers at a few select people's houses.After that,I turned in a couple of applications for employment at a couple of local places.After that,I paid a visit to a friend to see how they were doing.After spending a few minutes with them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and caught up on some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD and the symptoms of that disorder.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.Aside from the daily,or at times,the minute/moment changes of my mood,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of schizophrenia,such as hearing sounds and/or voices that nobody else but me hears.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this to my Heavenly Father and I really talk hard about this particular struggle and I share this with him in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in keeping me sustained and also,to keep me on a normal level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning when I masturbated.There was some lusting and fantasizing involved in this and yes,I gave into it.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for my sins and I did feel better afterwards as I truly believed that I was truly forgiven and my sins were forgotten by him.I kept up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father as the temptations kept coming at me.I didn't want to fall short again and I kept up in prayer all day and tried to stay as busy as I could while trying to keep my mind on all things holy.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blogs and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am going through a really difficult emotional time.I am also asking that you all leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going.Please leave me words of encouragement in the comments section and also,please keep up in prayer for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ