Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda today.
After having a light lunch at home,I went out to get my hair cut and after that,I went to do a little bit of shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart.After doing that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit of reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While mt rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I also have and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation by masturbating.I really felt terrible after that and feeling so remorseful after doing this,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and also begged for my Heavenly Father to show me his mercy as I did this as I was really and truly sorry and repentant for doing this.I did feel better after doing so as I truly believed that I was truly forgiven and that my slate of sins were wiped clean.I did keep busy throughout the day so I wouldn't fall again.I am going to have to try and keep working on praying hard whenever these sorts of temptations come around.I don't want to keep falling every time I turn around.I know that my Heavenly Father forgives in a large way,but I don't want to feel that I am abusing this.I am still going through a lot of emotional issues and I am anxious as I want to find a job,but so far,though I have turned in applications,I haven't heard from none of the places that I have applied to as of yet.I am still hoping that I will indeed find a new job and I have been praying continually for that as well.I am asking that all of you keep up in prayer for me and also please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this struggle and fight.They also make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ