Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I returned a few phone calls and after that,I did my personal PC work.I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and eagerly awaited another phone call to come.After that,I simply relaxed and took it easy for the rest of the day.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father whenever I feel that it is starting to get way too difficult for me to handle.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through the difficulties and they both help in sustaining me as well as keeping me level.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened out of a deep sleep by another erection.I had to go to the bathroom,so I got up and walked there and as I walked there,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals were now fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasizing with other men and also,to manipulate my genitals alongside these sexual images of men that clouded my mind.I prayed hard to my Heavenly Father and asked him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I didn't want to fall.After praying,I felt much stronger as I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and he gave me what I asked for.Though I have been doing this,I am again asking for prayers by all of you who follow my blog and read the posts.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words make me feel stronger and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue to seek healing for the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans as of yet.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ