Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.Today was a very special service as it was honoring graduates from Kindergarten and 8th graders from the school that is run by the church.It was a little bit longer than most and it was still wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I also did my personal PC work as well.After that,I had a light lunch.After lunch,I popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church each and every Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,and ask him to help get me through this and they both help in keeping me level and also,sustained.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is good.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed,which made the erection soften.When my genitals softened,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex sexual fantasies and also,to manipulate my genitals to these sexual images of men.I kept up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I really threw all these temptations on him and pleaded to make me strong in resisting them and I felt stronger and much better after praying.These terrible temptations do keep coming at me from all sides.They are very difficult for me to resist and I keep on praying whenever they keep coming at me.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and please don't be afraid to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I keep asking these things because I do need daily motivators to help keep me going in this fight and struggle as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and also,make me even determined to continue in this journey out of SSA and to continue to seek healing from SSA as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ