Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first dropped my laundry off at my niece's house and after that,I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in some bottles that I had and I also picked something up that I needed.After that,I headed over to the post office to get a money order to pay my car insurance and after that,I headed over to my insurance agent's office to pay the bill.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I got from the bottles at the Where's George site and after that,I relaxed for a bit to head over to my niece's house for dinner.I stayed over there for a while and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and watched a little bot of TV.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.If not having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they not only help in sustaining me,but also help to keep me on a steady plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I turned to the left side of the bed and when that didn't work,I sat up for a while and then proceeded to get out of bed,which made the erection soften and when my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to sleep.Throughout the rest of the day,I wasn't tempted to do anything in regards to acting out on SSA and that was good.I kept busy throughout the day doing what I had to do and nothing of any sorts came to my mind.Though I did escape today,I still have to keep in mind that tomorrow is another day and there are also other days as well.I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome SSA and also to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ