Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for the church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Target to pick up a small bottle of juice for breakfast tomorrow.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a pair of lounge pants.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I had lunch.After that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply place this struggle in the hands of my heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a level plain.It does make me feel a tad better when they are taking the lead and getting me through the difficulties of this double whammy of a psychiatric disability that I have.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything they do to help me through all of these difficulties connected with the psychiatric double whammy that I have.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I had to get up and use the bathroom and so,I headed for there and as I was going there,the erection started to soften and was fully soft when I was finished.I went right back to sleep afterwards.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but this time,it wasn't as strong as it was the last two weeks up to my falling yesterday.I did pray to my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these temptations came at me and I asked for strength to fight and resist.I did feel better after praying and I did feel stronger after that.I am again asking for prayers by all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts here.I also need some encouraging words shared by all of you as well.It is just that my blog gets many visitors,but comments of any kind are rare.Please pray for me and please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA and for me to also continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA,Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Christ Jesus as well for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ