Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.I had very few things.I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to see of they had what I was looking for,which they didn't.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to see if they had what I was looking,which they did,but I couldn't buy it at this moment.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also caught up on some reading as well.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be on a day to day basis,or at other times,from a minute/moment to minute/moment basis within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to get me through and they both help in keeping me sustained and also,on a more calmer level plain.I am not alone in this particular struggle and makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to the bathroom as I had to use it.After I was finished,my genitals returned to their fully softened state and I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men.Sexual images of men clouded my mind repeatedly and I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals alongside this,but this time,I went immediately to my Heavenly Father and asked him to give me strength to fight and resist these urges.I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me this strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges and after praying,I felt much better and also,I felt much stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.While I did and will continue to do this,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my daily posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through all of this.I would also appreciate an encouraging word or two by all of you in the comments section as well.I need both prayers and encouraging words by all of you.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rare.Please leave me an encouraging word in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this particular struggle and only strength my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and to continue in healing journey to heal from these terrible unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ