Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning,but didn't shower for a while because the job placement counselor came over to the house to help me with an online job application.After a while,he left and I showered.I had my usual quick breakfast after my shower and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did all of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
After completing the online application at home,I headed out to deliver some free newspapers and after that was done,I headed out to the local K-Mart to see if they had something that I was looking for,which they didn't.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and caught up on some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the accompanying emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with my Heavenly Father and I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the negatives up and downs of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't long.As usual,I sensed that I had to go to the bathroom and I got up and headed for there and the erection started to soften.When I was finished,the erection was fully dead and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting with other men.I kept busy throughout the day to take my mind off of these things and I did feel a little bit better.I went out to do my usual routine and this kept my mind clear off of anything sexual.Still,I am going to need all of your prayers and your encouraging words to help keep me going.I am always in need of prayers and encouraging words to help me in my daily struggle against SSA.Please keep up in prayer for me and also,please don't be afraid to leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going and strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ