Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since I had no place to go today,I chose to stay home and catch up on some much cleaning up around the house and also,caught up on some reading afterwards.
Today was simply a quiet day where I chose to catch up on some much needed things to be done around the house.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle in prayer to my Heavenly Father and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through whenever this struggle is getting seemingly way too difficult for me to handle and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to indulge in masturbation when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to use the bathroom as I had to use it.As I headed for there,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted much throughout the day to indulge in same sex fantasies and lusting of other men as sexual images of men clouded my mind.I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these sexual images of men.I prayed to my Heavenly Father and asked him to give me the strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations.I asked him in the name of son Jesus Christ to give me this strength as I really needed it to fight and resist these terrible temptations.I did feel stronger after praying to my Heavenly Father and I also knew as well as truly believed that he heard me and gave me what I asked for.I am also again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in praying for me as I am going through this very difficult emotional time and also,I ask that none of you be shy and please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left by anyone.Please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging are very important to me.They both help keep me going in this particular struggle and make me even more determined to continue in my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I haven't really got anything planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ