Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I didn't have too much planned for today.I am still fighting cold symptoms,though they're not as bad as they were when my cold first started almost two weeks ago.I am still taking Echinacea teas and taking Echinacea and Golden Seal capsules.I am hopping that by the end of the week,my cold will be completely knocked out.
I still kept busy with life despite the cold.I had to run errands for myself.I had to buy some things that I needed really desperately.I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up these things and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I spent the whole afternoon putting empty cans and bottles from the back seat of my car into black garbage bags after putting the stuff that I bought away.After that was done,I did some more personal PC work while preparing my evening meal.
After eating my evening meal,I went out to run a few more errands again.I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of other things.After that,I headed straight home and that is where I stayed for the rest of the evening as I had to get ready for bed and get up tomorrow morning.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.As I have said before and I will say again,I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with on a daily basis.They both help in keeping me sustained and also keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I turned the opposite way of the bed,but that only made the erection throb.I proceeded to get out of bed to walk a little and when I started doing that,the erection started to soften.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.But today,since I was out in the community,I really didn't have much to worry about.I simply went through the day without the thoughts and I made it through.Though I did escape today,I am asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep on praying for me as I am going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers really desperately.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.They both help in a lot of ways.They help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ