Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
Today,since it was raining,I was hoping to get around to doing some much needed house cleaning,but my niece called and asked me to babysit for her kids while she went to work and until her live in boyfriend came home.I went over there and everything there went well.After her live in boyfriend came home,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend was doing and after a few minutes,I headed over to the drug store to pick up a prescription.After paying the co-pay on it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to fix my evening meal and after that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one minute to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this struggle to my Heavenly Father and throw it on him as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in keeping me sustained and also,on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning by masturbating.Yes,I did.It was to sexual images of men clouding my mind.I really felt miserable after this and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I confessed everything to him.After that,I felt better and I truly believed and knew that I was truly forgiven and that my Heavenly Father wiped the slate clean.I have been falling pretty much over the last several days.I really don't know why.Fellow blog followers,I would really appreciate some prayers right now.I desperately need them.I also desperately need some words of encouragement at this moment.I need them both.I am still going through a very difficult emotional period and these latest falls that I have been experiencing are terrible.I don't want to keep falling and falling every time that I turn around.Please continue praying for me.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.They both do help out in a lot of ways.Yes,they do.You never know how powerful prayers and words of encouragement can be.Please pray for me and don't be afraid to leave me some words of encouragement.They can be in the form of being upbuilded by scripture or just something that I know can help from the heart.Thanks to all of you in advance for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ