Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran an errand that needed to be run.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I picked up several more bottles and cans all over the place and I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and popped a DVD in the DVD player.I simply decided to get ready to turn in for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me calmer and much more level.It shows that I am never alone in this particular fight and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I started to sit up in bed and proceeded to get out of bed,which made the erection soften.I walked for a bit and my genitals softened within a few minutes.I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but staying out in the community kept my mind off of these things.I stayed out for a while and I kept my mind at what I was doing.This took my mind off of anything sexual with men and I managed to squeeze by without any problems.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of my fellow blog followers who regularly read my posts here to please continue praying for me.I also ask that when you visit,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at the moment.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ