Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I went to a local supermarket to turn in bags full of empty bottles and cans that were in my car.I had to make room for other things.After collecting the money for turning them in,I headed for home to register all the bills and after that,I headed over to a nearby McDonald's to have a couple of sandwiches to tie me over until dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that made my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in keeping me sustained and also much calmer and more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,but it didn't last very long.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed,which made my genitals soften.I got up and walked a little and when my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.Today,I stayed out in the community and that took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I stayed out and did what I had to do and that kept my mind off of anything sexual.It was very good to be out and getting some air and staying busy.Though I escaped today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep on praying for me.I am also asking that all of you please leave me an encouraging word of two in the comments section.I need both badly and desperately.Your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ