Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a warm sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and headed over to someone's place for a little get together.
I had fun with this person.We ate,had some laughs and talked about a lot of things.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and put my pajamas on.I also popped a movie into the DVD player and watched it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also much calmer and a little more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and I decided to walk a little bit around the house.This made my genitals soften.Though it was slow going,my genitals had fully softened after a while and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men.The temptations were overwhelming.Today,I simply stayed busy doing what I was doing.I spent time with someone at their place.I had a wonderful time and that was great.It took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also need some positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.Please pray for me and also,please leave some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ