Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I didn't have too much to do today.I simply ran a few errands and I also ate a local Burger King during lunchtime.I simply dropped a few newspapers off at a few people's houses and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I relaxed for the rest of the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask him for this in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in keeping me sustained,but also,on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though it didn't last long.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I got out of bed and I headed for the bathroom,which made my genitals soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men and I was also tempted to "near masturbate" alongside this.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist these urges as these urges can be very overwhelming at times and today was no exception.Fortunately,I managed to escape and that was good.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that y'all who continually follow my blog and read the posts to please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep my determination and motivation strong.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any type of comments.Please leave me something encouraging and also,please keep praying for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I had my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and I am also going to a Halloween party at a church in my area.I am hoping that both are wonderful.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ