Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I didn't have too much today.I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things and after that,I got some gas in my tank and I also bought a few things at other places.I also managed to get a replacement band for my wrist watch.After all of these things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away.I also started to prepare my evening meal.While eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I ask for strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help in sustaining me and also make me feel much calmer and more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell again for the second consecutive time.I masturbated early this morning and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I gave into this terrible unclean,dirty and disgusting habit.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning and I also begged and pleaded for his mercy on me as I prayed because I was really sorry for giving into this terrible temptation.I was sad and disillusioned as a result of my falling into sin this morning.I prayed and prayed and I did feel better after doing so.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that y'all continue to pray for me.Yes,I am.I need your prayers desperately.I am really sick of this terrible SSA struggle.I am not going to give up,but I do need prayers and also,I need some words of positive encouragement as I am going through a very difficult emotional time.I hate it that I have these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.I hate everything connected to this terrible SSA.Please fellow blog followers,I am asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.I need both of these things desperately.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I don't want to feel alone in this particular struggle.I know that I am not alone in this as I know that there are other men who also struggle with SSA.I feel all alone when I don't get any encouraging words in the comments section.Please leave me something encouraging and also,prayers are also appreciated.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a Men's Network meeting tomorrow and church as usual on Sunday,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ