Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Today,I ran a few more errands.I went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I went over to a local McDonald's to have a couple of sandwiches for lunch.After that,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and prepared my evening meal.When it was finished,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it while eating.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden and ask him for strength to help me endure through the negatives.I ask him for this strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer plain as well as more at ease.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals soften.My genitals were fully soft when I was finished and I went right back to bed and to sleep.I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in sinful fantasies and lusting after other men.I stayed outside for much of the day and by being out in the community,it took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I was out for much of the day and that kept me occupied.It is wonderful being out in public and by being out and about,I had really kept my mind on the tasks at hand and that was pretty good.I am again asking that all of you continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need both prayers and some positive verbal encouragement.Please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.They both help keep me going.They also keep both my determination and motivation strong.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ