Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Before I did what I had to do,I had a talk with my job placement counselor and we are to meet next week and the Dept. of Labor in my hometown to see about looking up other jobs and see if at least one job or more interests me.After we talked on the phone,I set about my day and I also had a visit with my case worker and the session with her went well.After she left,I left the house to run a few errands that I had to run.
I went to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed and after that,I headed over to the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and when I was done with that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my medication.After paying the co-pay for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.While that was being done,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I watched a little TV.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and Schizophrenia.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate pretty much daily,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I never know how I will be emotionally or mood-wise.I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia,which makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still in therapy,for which I have a session next Monday and not next Tuesday like I initially thought.I am also still taking my medication as directed.The psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult.It's bad enough that I struggle with BPD/Schizophrenia.My SSA struggles are more difficult as a result of this psychiatric double whammy that I have.I am always tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have and the temptations can be very overwhelming.They can be anything from being tempted to look at porn or manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind or the worst temptation,which is going out to seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.Whenever temptation does come,I pray to my Heavenly Father and I ask him for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I ask for strength constantly.I do feel much stronger after that.Fellow blog followers,I again ask that all of you please continue praying for me.I also ask for some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Please pray for me and please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I need both of these things to help me keep going and to keep both my determination and my motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for those things.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ