Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as today was a big day.
Today was a big day because my father came into town and we had lunch at a restaurant where they served roast beef sandwiches and we could help ourselves to vegetable at the bar.It was a wonderful lunch and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I dropped a couple of newspapers off and when that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I headed for the bathroom as I had to use it badly.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I went and got some gas and I headed over to the house at one of my nephews and we had pizza and chicken wings for dinner.After eating and having a little bit of conversation,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend was doing and after spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.I also popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.The ups and downs of BPD can be draining and stressful.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also battle symptoms of Schizophrenia and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult as I have to put with hallucinatory things that only I can hear and nobody else can.It also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult at the same time.Today,I was plagued,though minimally,to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasies of other men and even this morning,my temptations to masturbate came when I was awakened by an erection.Fortunately for me,I had to use the bathroom,so I got out of bed and I headed for there and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Fortunately for me,I stayed out and about for much of the day and also,the anticipation of my father's visit and having lunch and dinner out with the family took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I have also been feeling minimal temptation to indulge in fantasies and lusting since getting involved with the addictions support group on Monday night and looking forward to the next one.I am hoping that these good things and feelings continue onward.Of course,I got through today unscathed,but there is always tomorrow.I am hoping that tomorrow will be just like today.I am going to keep up praying myself,but I also ask that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support at the same time.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my two spirituality groups in both the morning and the evening,I have nothing much planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ