Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed over to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to the house of one of my nephews and had a bowl of homemade soup that my father made.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group.
That group also was wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and into my night clothes.I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still having a very difficult time dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the symptoms of Schizophrenia alongside that.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate constantly They can be up and feeling good one day/minute/moment and down the next day/minute/moment.I also have to put up with hearing things that only I can hear and nobody else can hear and that really can stress me out and also,drain me emotionally.I still attend my therapy sessions.I also continue taking my medication as directed.The psychiatric double whammy that I have also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult.In my struggles with SSA,I have to deal and put up with temptations coming at me left and right and also,these temptations range from going out to seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity to watching pornography online.They can also range from being tempted to masturbate and/or manipulate my genitals while lusting and fantasizing with other men,like today,I gave into that particular temptation and I really felt miserable.I prayed hard to my Heavenly Father and I asked him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him and I did feel better after that.I am also again asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement desperately.They both help keep me going and also,they help keep my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ