Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.When that was done,I proceeded to get on with the the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I went to get some gas in my gas tank.After that,I headed over to the public library to print som eimporatnt files and when I was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little TV.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily strugles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two.Today,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals with sexual images of men clouding my mind and I also wound up ejaculating while I was doing this.I really felt miserable after that and after washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for sinning against him.I did feel better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I really have to buckle down and get tough with myself in this area.Satan and his minions really did it to me this time.I have to really start to ask my heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to really get serious and make it a habit of doing this.I don't want Satan and his minions to get satisfaction out of me by repeatedly tempting me to sin and also,to make me think that it is okay to be Homosexual/Gay,when in reality,it isn't okay as my Heavenly Father,through his sacred word the Holy Bible,doesn't approve of this sort of thing.He condemns the sexual activity between two members of the same gender in both the Old and the New Testaments.He doesn't approve nor accept this sort of thing as he created man and woman,Adam and Eve,and approves only of healthy Heterosexuality where a man and woman get married and share in chaste sexual relations with only each other between them and nothing else.Our Heavenly Father didn't create sexuality to be used and abused the way that the world around us is using and abusing it,as the world around us uses sexuality for all the wrong reasons.I was once in that trap and I am glad that I am out of it.I don't want to fall back into the trap of using sexuality for selfish purposes by using members of my own gender for selfish and sinful purposes as men weren't created for that at all.The same also applies for women as well.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily.It is just that my blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments in the comments section.Positive verbal encouragement really does help alongside the prayers.They both help keep me going in this fight and struggles and further proves that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ