Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.After that,I decided to proceed with the rest of my day.
I had only a few things planned for today.I went out to pick up a few more job applications.After that,I headed for a local supermarket to pick up a couple loaves of whole wheat bread and chicken breasts.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away in their proper places and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and make a few phone calls.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.I also got a phone call from one of the places that I applied to and I have an interview appointment for Tuesday the 20th of this month at 3:00pm.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding in my mind upon arising.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out as I bared all in my prayer and when I was finished,I felt much better and I also knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I am still working on getting tough with myself in this regard.I am still working on trying to regularly go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations when they come around.I am serious about wanting to heal.I am also serious about wanting to overcome.I need to really work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him to help me regularly.I have to stop giving into these terrible temptations.I don't want to disappoint my Heavenly Father by giving into these terrible things.I don't want to give Satan and his minions the satisfaction that they want,which is to sin against my Heavenly Father and disobey his perfect law in regards to sexuality.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left by anyone.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support.They both help keep me going.They also keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Please continue keeping me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ