Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had no time to eat,so I got dressed in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency with job applications in hand.
My job placement counselor/coach and I filled them out within 45 minutes.After we were done,I headed out to drop them off at the places where I picked them up,with the exception of two,which I held onto until the late afternoon.After that,I headed straight home and when I got there,I had my usual quick breakfast a little late.I did my personal PC work afterwards and I had a few PB & J sandwiches for lunch.After that,I headed back out to do some shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart and when that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I got dressed up again in the dress clothes and I dropped off the last two applications.On the way to do that,I picked up another application.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a a friend of mine was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into casual clothes and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and when I was done with that,I relaxed while preparing for my evening retirement as tonight,my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group was cancelled,but will resume next week.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Today,upon arising,I was tempted to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and also,I was tempted to fantasize and lust after them.The temptation was overwhelming and strong.I actually turned the temptations over to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I prayed real hard and I kept praying until the temptations were reduced to nil.When I was finished,I felt stronger and I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I also thanked him for giving me that strength.For the rest of the day,I kept busy putting the job applications in and hoping that I will eventually be hired soon.I have been getting my name out there and hoping and praying for something to happen,but so far,nothing new has happened since mid last year.I am hoping that something happens soon.The task of handing in the job applications today took my mind off of sexual stuff and that was good.Nothing came into my mind as I was out and about today handing in the job applications.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Satan and his minions can strike at any time with temptations.I need to continue to be on guard and watchful.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also need some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section and continue to keep me in your prayers.Your prayers and positive verbal support help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments in the comments section.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my evening Celebrate Recovery group,I haven't any plans made.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ