Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered and when I was done with that,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I called ahead for a haircut at the newly opened place where I get my hair done.After my hair was done,I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I stopped at a local store to pick up a small bag of ranch flavored tortilla chips.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed while doing some more personal PC work.
After eating,I was hoping to head out to my usual Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,but a severe thunderstorm warning kept me home and I didn't want to take any chances,so I chose to stay home to be on the safe side.which went as wonderfully as expected as the sharing was enormous and overwhelming.I simply did some work at home and later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising,I was again tempted overwhelmingly to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitals to the sexual images of men that were clouding my mind.My mind wasn't fully awake at that point and again,the temptations to indulge were overwhelming.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength as the temptations today were very overwhelming.I prayed and I prayed until the desires were nil.It took a while,but when I finished praying,I felt better and much stronger as I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day just doing what I had to do and I had no more problems with temptations.I stayed busy just doing what I had to and it kept my mind off of everything sexual with other men and that was good.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I need to stay on guard and be watchful as when they strike,I need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.The positive verbal support reassures and reaffirms me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep me going.They also help keep my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.As I have said before and I will say it again,my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section and I really do need some positive verbal support really desperately in the same way that I need the prayerful support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ