Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had 3 cups of coffee as I was still feeling really sleepy when I got up out of bed.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I had a light lunch and when I was finished with it,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went out for a little drive somewhere,but the place I went to was closed.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and I then prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and after that was done,I decided to watch a classic TV episode on one of my DVD sets.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter being the most difficult for me.Early this morning,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals when sexual images of men clouded my mind and I started fantasizing and lusting after them.I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I left nothing out.I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling into sin as I asked for the forgiveness that my Heavenly Father provides for those who worship him that are repentant.After I was finished praying,I felt better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without having any problems with immoral sexual images of men and I also had no temptation to manipulate my genitals.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.I still have to work on regularly asking my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I need to really go to my Heavenly Father and ask for this strength regularly.I don't want to fall back into the routine of habitually sinning and asking to be forgiven by my Heavenly Father, as I feel that I would be abusing his divine gift of forgiveness.I don't want to do that.I have to show my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ that I truly mean it when I keep saying that I want to overcome SSA and also heal from the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayers and positive verbal support.They both help out in a lot of ways.Prayers and positive verbal encouragement have powers beyond everything.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ.