Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I had a light lunch.After eating that,I headed out to do some stuff that I had to do.
I picked up a couple more job applications and after that,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart,but chose not to get anything there today.After leaving there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I had myself a light dinner and when I was finished eating,I did some more personal PC work.I then prepared for my early retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I managed to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist the temptations to sin in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I was tempted with the usual temptations to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men that were clouding my mind and I also had the temptation to fantasize and lust after them.I prayed real hard for that strength as I really wanted to fight and resist these terrible,but overwhelming,urges.When I was finished,I felt better and stronger and I went through the rest of the day unscathed.I simply went about my day and stayed busy so I could keep my mind on other things and throughout the day,I didn't have any problems with any temptations.I stayed busy and I kept at what I had to do and it kept my mind off of anything sexual.It is wonderful that I have a loving Heavenly Father and loving savior,his only begotten son Jesus Christ,to be there for me to give me strength to fight and resist all sorts of terrible temptations.While I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I need to make it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for the strength to help me fight and resist these temptations when they come around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support from all of you.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need positive verbal support in the comments section alongside your prayerful support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination to overcome and motivation to heal strong.They also both reassure and reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular fight and struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach to help me fill out those applications that I picked up over the last 2 days,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ