Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I spent the rest of the morning doing my personal PC work.After it was done,I relaxed for a while and I decided to watch a documentary DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After it was over,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I watched a little TV.I also started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My car is still out of commission at this moment.When it will be back,I don't know when.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,in the mid afternoon,I was tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations as I really didn't want to give Satan and his minions what they wanted me to give them.They are trying everything in their power to get me to disobey my Heavenly Father and his perfect law in regards to sexuality.It actually started to get worse as a result of the problem that I am having with my car.I prayed real hard to my Heavenly Father and I left nothing out.I threw everything on him and when I was finished,I felt stronger as I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went through the rest of the day with no problems nor troubles,but continued to stay on guard and be watchful.I have to continue keeping in mind that Satan and his minions can strike at any time during the day or at any other time.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want as I want to do what is right in my Heavenly Father's eyes,but my sinful nature,which Satan loves to use against me,wants me to do what is the opposite.I have to continually stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that y'all please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I also need all the positive verbal support that I can get.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments in the comments section.Your support in both of these areas is very important to me and it also works in a variety of ways.It also matters to me because I do need boosting and upbuilding.They both help keep me going.They also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue your prayerful support and also,please leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
2 comments:
FJ, I see such a positive progression in your sharing. It really is important isn't it to be on guard concerning the enemies attempts to get a person down. I know from experience that it is stuff, even like car problems, that can get a person distracted and before long the mind can go places that are unhealthy. It sure looks like you are keeping your relationship with God close...looking to him in all circumstances and depending on him makes so much difference. Praying for you. Cheering for you as well. Look for those things God is using to draw you closer to him and be thankful. Victory to you my brother.
Stan
Stan
I am trying to make it as close as I can, though it is still a work in progress. I just need to do it regularly. I have to show the unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them, that I am stronger than they are and not the other ways around. Easier said than done, but I know that if I keep throwing the temptations on my Heavenly Father, that will be more than enough to show these unnatural sexual desires that I own them. I am still working on it and I am hoping that it will get better.
I am still looking for work and the stress of the search is also a contributor to all of these things. Thanks Stan for posting this. I really needed it as I need positive verbal support every day. Thanks again.
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