Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning as I was awakened by a phone call by my job placement counselor/coach.She informed me that I could come in and she could help me fill out a couple of job applications after I picked them up.I said okay and after I hung up,I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I went out to pick up the two applications at the places she wanted me to pick them up.After that,I headed for the agency where we both filled them out and after we were finished,I clipped my resume and her business card on them and I headed out to turn them in.After I did that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and into some casual clothes.After that,I headed back out to run a few errands and when I was done with them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I also started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I had no problems today as I had no temptations to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.I had no temptations to fantasize nor lust after other men.I also didn't have the temptation to subsequently manipulate my genitals either.I guess that being out for much of the day turning in those job applications and running the errands helped keep my mind off of these terrible things.I also still feel that talking to my Heavenly Father about my aforementioned obsession that I talked about on last Saturday's post also helped.Still,though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow as Satan and his minions can strike at any time and try to get me to sin against my Heavenly Father and his perfect law in regards to sexuality.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.I also need to continue working on going to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever temptations do come around.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers but they rarely leave any comments in the comments section.I need both positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.They both help keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.The positive verbal support also helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Celebrate Recovery group in the evening,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ