Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and I headed over to a friend's place and hung out with the for a while and I left to head for home.
When I got home,I changed into dress clothes to visit a place where I dropped off a job application,but was told that their policy was they would call me in for an interview when they would get around to it.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into casual clothes and did my personal PC work.
After eating a light meal,I headed over to my usual Celebrate Recovery group and the meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my clothes and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I had no problems with temptation nor did any sexual images of men cloud my mind.But last night,I was trying to get some sleep and I was tempted overwhelmingly as sexual images of men clouded my mind and I was tempted to act out on them by fantasizing and lusting after them and to manipulate my genitals to the images.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I didn't stop praying until it all disappeared and when I was finished praying,I turned another way and went back to sleep.But today,I had no problems and while I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both types of support every day.They both help keep me going.They also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a Men's Network group tomorrow and church on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the upcoming weekend ahead.FJ