Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and hung it up,alongside my other dress clothes.After that,I had a light lunch and I did my personal PC work.
I also decided to pay a visit to a friend of mine who lives locally within the city.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home and stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.For me,going to church every Sunday makes the day eventful.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward,I am still on a daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.I never know how my moods and/or my emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.It also doesn't make my struggles with SSA any easier,either.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting too difficult for me to handle.When this happens,I talk with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ about this particular struggle and I feel a tad better as they both help in sustaining me.It is great that I can talk about this particular struggle with the both of them and they help in ways that go beyond what any human therapy and medication can do.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to really use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation.I sat up for a while and didn't lay back down until the erection had softened.I went back to sleep when it did.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day to act out on the unnatural desires that I have in quite a few ways and every time when the temptations hit,I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I always felt better as the temptations were reduced to nil every time that I prayed.I kept it up all day and I talked about them repeatedly until I felt that the temptation was gone thanks to both God and his son Christ Jesus.I kept it up all through the day and God did his work.I am still asking that everyone who follows and reads my blog also pray for me and please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I see that people do visit,but they never leave a comment or two on my blog to encourage me.Please leave an encouraging word or two as they,alongside your prayers,help keep me going in this fight to overcome these unnatural desires that I have that are connected to this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Please say a prayer for me everyone and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I also will continue praying myself.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group.As for teh rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ