Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.I also proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I really didn't have too much to do.I simply ran a small errand that needed to be run and after that was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also managed to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or sometimes,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this struggle and that is wonderful.It also makes me feel a tad better as a result.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up in bed and proceeded to get out of it and the erection started to soften as I did that.When my genitals were fully soft,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to manipulate my genitalia while these temptations were coming at me from all sides.I prayed hard to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these temptations tried to get the better of me.I asked God to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations as they coming at me and I felt better each time after doing so.I felt stronger and I also felt that God was there listening to me and that he really wanted to help me.I am also again asking for prayers and encouraging words by everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts.I get many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rare.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me and also,please continue in prayer for me.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA and to also continue in my healing journey from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with the SSA condition.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I will be attending church for the Easter breakfast in the church's fellowship hall and the worship service following that.I am also going to my nephew's house for dinner.When that is all done,I am just going to go home and take it easy and watch a movie or two.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ