Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.I also did a Holy Bible reading in front of the congregation today.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After the service was over,we commenced to the church's fellowship hall for a charity luncheon that was held to raise funds for someone in the congregation that was sick and needed money for treatments.
The charity luncheon was wonderful as well and after eating and some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up a prescription.After paying my co-pay for it,I left and as I was leaving,I ran into an old schoolmate of mine and we talked for a few minutes.After she went into the store,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult or unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.This just shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel only a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and proceeded to attempt to get out of bed and that is what made the erection soften.When my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to sleep.For at least today,I really wasn't tempted very much to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and I really wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals to those images of men.I guess what contributed to that was that I kept busy with the fellowship with my fellow worshipers in fellowship at church and also,at the charity luncheon.The thoughts of sex with other men never entered my mind today and for today,I felt relieved that I didn't have to go through any of it.Though I did escape today,I have to keep in mind that tomorrow is another day and so is the day after that and so on.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue in prayer for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging comment or two.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA and to also continue healing from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ